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Invisibletake a deep breathe and count to ten .
what just happened ... will never happen again .
your hands start to tremble; the sink is cold .
you tell yourself you are strong; you are bold .
don't look in the mirror and stare .
this isn't right ... this isn't fair .
don't think about it too much, or you'll go insane .
tears and blood make their way down the drain .
what just happened ... to me ?
why do you feel so gross and dirty ?
feeling so worthless and wasted .
so unloved , abandoned, and tasted .
having given them everything, every part .
why did they turn, and break your heart ?
shattering every piece, leave you broken .
The EscapistIt is really insomnia
If you're keeping me awake?
Is it the infatuation
That made me start to shake?
Is it so peculiar
If you make me feel brand new?
Is it some kind of obsession
That I have with you?
I watch you when I feel lonely
Is that so wrong?
I think of you when they hurt me
So what if that's all day long?
You make me feel so happy
What if that's all I have?
Should that be taken away
Just because it sounds mad?
Because right now in real life
There's no happily ever after
When I see something I don't like
I can't just skip the chapter
Or quickly press fast forward
On a TV remote control
Real life is but a wound
And you help fill the h
Lucifer and VisitorThe Devil mourned his homeland lost
Upon a stone in exile deep
Beneath the great Earth’s hardened crust
Where fires rage inside the sea
Much too far for father sky
To see the rock where The Devil lie
As he lamented, sullen, weary
Expression that of sorrow true
A Thing appeared, and very clearly
Cracked the gates of Lucifer’s tomb
The grin that danced upon his face
Found hell to be the quaintest place
The thing approached and asked him kindly,
“Why do you mourn your banishment?
All the land above I do see
But I’ve never seen an armament
So well hidden from my mighty eyes
Which see all things as they liv
I don't know you enough
To even know your last name
But I do know that you've had it rough
As I have felt the same
But you've suffered more in your distress
Making my past sorrows
Seem nothing more than a jest
Knowing atonement heralds tomorrow
Even so, I know the pain
And the committal to aid
In my heart has lain
Of course, if you desire it made
My heart, I swear, broke
When I heard of your troubled emotions
And the stress driving you to provoke
And this stayed in my notion
Maybe I could give comfort
Make the past easier to overlook
Together, rid of our contorts
And be each other's retreating nooks.
AnimalsWe’re animals, we’re beasts who prey
Upon the weak who fear our stay
Its natural to feast and slay
Their hearts bleed in our jowls
We all wear masks and masquerade
As decent creatures, folks who pray
But deep inside, our demons play
Beneath cowardice cowls
The others claim to know the way
Those neutered, tamed, trained to obey
Condemning us for what we say
Look down at us with scowls
They lock our voices in a cage
Restrictions bind, we’re blind with rage
Liberate yourselves, you slaves
Let free your hungry howls
To the vermin calling me scoundrel
I will not heel, I will not bow
You’ll hear the hatred in my growl
My Lonely LoveWipe off your tears
and hold your head high
get rid of your fears
and heave your biggest sigh
Oh, my lonely love
Alone in a crowded room
Feeling so scared
The shadow of isolation looms
and it feels like they don't care
My lonely love
Remembering the times
when it was just us
Sorrow, with its sweetest rhymes
think of it as you must
My lonely love
Crying alone at night
wondering what you did
hearing them fight
when you were only a kid
my lonely love
Told that you were ugly
that you were not good enough
they will just never see
That they weren't all that tough
my lonely love
When it feels as though your soul is gone
And your heart is broken
Notes and LettersI wrote a note the other day,
And with it shared my feelings.
I've tried to have it other ways,
But they seem to be congealing.
I loved the stars when I was young;
The first word of mine was "light".
Of happy thoughts, I once had none,
But now the world's more bright.
I feel too much frustration,
I need to be more calm.
I drown in hesitation,
Too scared to sing my song.
I never was the kind of child
I wish I could have been.
At times I've been more meek and mild,
But later I learned to sin.
I wonder, sometimes, whose life I'm living,
Whose soul endows this frame.
I blunder, sometimes, when what they give me
Doesn't match my name.
Whence To WhereYou surprise me and confuse me,
And make me love you more.
The brightness may undo me,
The darkness I adore.
There's so much grey,
And so much pain
That brings rejuvenation.
I fall and sink,
But then I blink
Whence to where is what I asked,
But much is coming clear.
My sadness fading here at last,
And with it all my fears.
You've brought me out,
How can I count
The times you've soothed my soul?
From where I was,
You may become
The star that leads me home.
Light and dark will mold and mix
Till grey is what I see.
A calming sight that seems to fix
What once was wrong with me.
The LiarWhen I found out the truth
The filthy thing under the bed
I screamed and howled
And learned to hate;
For the truth was biting
Bitter and cold
Like a burning hailstorm
That I wished had never unfold
I kept a secret
Told a lie
I spoke words of hatred
Felt something wilt and die
The world was faux
An unattainable fantasy
Hopes were fed to monsters
In my blood that cried blasphemy
I don't think you knew
Because you'd hate me if you did
To know our common blood was false
Of me, you'd surely rid
So I cut you off first
Then you'd never have the chance
To look under the bed
And pierce me through with a lance
I destroyed you first
So I'd not be
Last Day, Last LightDarkness surrounds
Black of darkest night
Not a sound
Last day, last light
A flame flickering to life
Hovering at the cigerette’s end
Only in my head is there strife
Left with my thoughts to fend
Slow drag to kill the pain
What’s there left to do?
The sky dark with storm’s rain
Our society so skewed
We can only realize this
The true power of hatred’s bite
Ignorance is truly bliss
Last day, last light
I hear them draw close
The demons in heart and head
Every weakness, they know
Across a meek world they spread
From the wound red emerges
My time is short, I have no fight
Pulses of pain surges
Last day, last light
In tribute to a friendFORGET
To forget a promise made
To forget a heart in pain
To forget a friendship's fade
To forget attempts in vain
To forget the start
To forget the bloody end
To forget what breaks a heart
To forget about about a friend
To forget what you had
To forget what you lost
To forget why she's mad
To forget cruelty's cost
To forget a monster's sins
To forget an artist's layers
To forget the bloody skins
To forget silenced prayers
To forget a line of lies
To forget what most would hide
To forget a horrid cry
To forget who's heart will bide
Forget to have known
Forget to have been shown
You are not alone
13. MisfortuneYou took the vow,
You said you would.
By all accounts,
Your word was good.
You loved me,
That much was clear.
And I loved you.
You know that, dear.
So please explain,
Why did you leave?
So much pain,
With no reprieve.
Did our love end?
Not on my side.
Was it pretend?
Or has it died?
Alli know, I'm
A single mom
With two young kids.
I miss you, Tom.
depression[read slowly if you can for best effect]
Your lonely heart keeps beating
despite your absent soul,
as thoughts of greater caring
just leave you less than whole.
The ways and truths of sadness
have emptied from within,
the darkness that absorbs you
is Heaven's greatest sin.
The hole just opens deeper,
the silence never stops,
now all the missing laughter
has left you in this box.
You cannot shake it off you,
the numb of painless pain,
when nothing all around you
will help you win this game.
can ever dry
you never cry.
Doorway To Her Heart
The doorway to her heart
Used to be flung open wide.
The room inside, filled with flowers
And a great blue sky.
But now the door is locked
Where she now sits and cries.
Something must have happened to her
But she'll never tell you...
For if you ask, she'll turn away
Running from the world she once knew.
From what I've heard
She speaks to no one.
She goes about doing what she has to
And then back home when the day is done.
Again I ask, what happen to her?
Everyone has different stories
Some which hold shock
But at the end of the day
The doorway that leads to her heart
Shall forever be hidden and locked.
Just A Memory
Like the first snow in winter
Or a blossom in spring
I'm just a memory
But still a magical thing.
Like a thought in your mind
Or something that happened early in time
I'm just a memory
But also a piece of history.
If you forget or if you remember
I'm not just a memory
I'm eternal and forever.
Her Love For Him
Her Love For Him
What is this feeling that she has deep inside?
That fills up her heart as well as her mind.
She's never felt this feeling before,
But her smiles continues to grow more and more.
She couldn't figure out where this came from.
Nor how, when, or where it had begun.
Then it became clear as he came into view.
He caused this feeling to spark, making it burn anew.
Every time she's with him, her heart skips a beat.
She loves his touch, which is gentle and sweet.
His eyes, his beautiful eyes, glow with golden light,
But his soul seems to glow even more bright.
When he holds her, safe is what she feels.
His touch, it seems
The Dragon's Heart
Phoenix tears have powers to heal.
Fairy wings are soft to feel.
Unicorn's blood gives you lasting life.
Griffin's are great companions of the sky.
Centaurs are very protective and trustworthy.
While pixies and nymphs define beauty.
But out of all these creatures,
There is one that stands out most.
One that is mighty, strong, and bold.
The Dragon is a very proud creature.
Its eyes are kind. The best of its features.
The wind of a Dragon will take you high.
When soaring above the clouds in the sky.
The claws and teeth are grand indeed.
These are two things people like to see.
Above all else that pierces through the dark...
Dance of the Elementals"Listen dear traveler, listen carefully.
I am the voice from thy history.
Do not be afraid, come and follow me.
If thy will answer my call, I will set thee free."
These are the words whispered to him, calling to his heart, pulling at the depths of his soul. Where are they coming from? Who is speaking them with such a beautiful voice that draws him closer to hear more? He knows not where to look. "Where are you my angel? Where are you my nymph? Should I look for thee in song or in a book?" With all these questions, he still does not get an answer. he only gets the embrace of the wind that he seems to chase after. Upon the nights visit, his
About the SeasonsSummer heat and Winter ice,
Spring's that blossom and Autumn's clear nights.
Ah yes, the joys of the season,
That make outside an ever changing haven.
What is it about these entities that are so special?
Maybe we'd know if we opened our eyes once in a while.
Hm, suppose you're a Summer person
Who loves the warmth of the sun.
It's in the rays of sunshine that you find your fun.
Then there is you, child of White Winter.
For you it's the snow and ice that holds all the wonder.
Perhaps, you're a flower in the arms of Spring.
When people glance at you they think, "what a precious thing".
And when the time comes, babe of Autumn,
Death's DaughterEverything to lose, nothing to gain.
There is so very little that remains.
A soul of light has turned to dark.
It's now littered with cuts and scars.
Noting to gain, everything to lose.
Death is the only option to choose.
He walks by her...he takes her hand...
She looks at him and knows he understands.
Coldness rest upon the skin,
Only seeming to sink further within.
She sits by a fire, begging for warmth...
But she wont...can't...feel it anymore.
Now, there is nothing to lose...
Now is there everything to gain.
Death now has a daughter in his home...
And there...in his arms...she'll always remain.
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